i didnt think id end up making one of them, but here i am, lol. im bored as tits at michaels house, hes at work:( so im in his room soooo bored, and all his t.v stations are in fucking spanish. but anyway!

alots been on my mind lately..i think its time for me to start thinking logically and hop on a plane to oklahoma. i dont want to leave the life ive created here, especially the love of my life. but i have to start thinking about myself. ive dug myself many holes, and its about time i start filling them in. i need to get my g.e.d, i need to get my lisense and learn how to drive, i need to get another job. im just so fucking confused. i dont like starting over, i never have. my mom says i should be use to moving now since weve always moved because of the military, but im not. its a win lose situation, which ever way i go im gonna lose some and im gonna win some. if i leave ill get to go to hawaii again<3 thatd be a dream come true. but living without michael will kill me. im gonna have to decide soon :/